Push/Pull Wednesday: A Solid C+

45 degree back raises
10 reps
8 reps +28 kg KB
3 reps +32 kg KB
3 reps +40 kg KB
15 reps +45 kg Plate PR

Shoulder warmup

1-arm DB OHP
*strict
8 reps @ 20 kgs
5 reps @ 30 kgs
3 reps @ 40 kgs
1 reps @ 45 kgs
3 reps @ 50 kgs goddamnit
9.5 reps @ 40 kgs equal to best effort

1-arm Kroc rows
8 reps @ 60 kgs
8 reps @ 70 kgs
8 reps @ 80 kgs

NOW I'M worried I'm getting weaker. Kroc rows were sub-par tonight - even with chalk my grip was just piss poor. I was expecting at least 10 reps.

The back raises were punishing, and I didn't expect to get 15 reps out! Range of motion, predictably, got smaller on the last couple. I'll get even more next time... or move to a 50 kilo plate. Or both.

And the last time I picked up that 50 kilo DB I managed only one fucking rep, yet (and I keep saying it because it feels like it didn't happen now) I strict pressed that bitch 5 times, not so long ago. Meh. I should stop complaining. Eat more if I want more. What I want is steady gains while I get leaner. Like I did last year.

It takes a long, long time to fix what I did to myself. This is me in June of 2010, after I'd been training for 2 months. I am sucking my gut in so hard in this picture. I weighed 148 kilos, down from over 150. That's over 330 pounds. And I still don't know how heavy I really was to begin with - my scales just kept reading 150 for the first several weeks, then one day I got on and it said 148. I was pleased enough to take some pics.

Now I'm 125-126. I'm expecting by the time I go into surgery I'll be 124 or less. And when I come out, I'll start eating like a slob again to give myself every chance at healing up. The re-comping will never stop though. Not until I'm walking around at between 120 and 125 kilos, with lets say a 35 inch waist. I don't give a shit about abs.

I think it's achievable. I just have to keep training, and keep eating right.